2010年9月2日 星期四

*09.01 of 2010




yup... another year has passed...
I'll be one year older in 8 days!!!!! >.<

My boyfriend has just moved back to L.A. for good, and I'm officially being left alone...

My recent crush has just started a new relationship...
what more to say here...

MY LIFE SUCKS!!!!!!!


serotonin is running low...
提不起精神
trying to listen to cheerful music to get by this emotional feeling I have inside,
it worked, but then went back down to the low again...

這樣的情緒只能自己消化
trying to tell myself to think positive,
look beyond what I see
but all I can think of is...


I HATE SEPTEMBER!!!!!

(serotonin 就是人體內的血清素. 當血清素缺乏,我們容易感到憂鬱.)

2010年8月30日 星期一

*Details in the fabric by Jason Mraz

無意間發現這首歌.
雖然不是現在的心情, but I know one day, I will be needing it!!!

Such a heart broken melody with a hearten lyrics!!!

http://mymedia.yam.com/m/2653509

Details In The Fabric\Jason Mraz

翻譯:Jayko

Calm down
冷靜點
Deep breaths
深呼吸
And get yourself dressed instead
好好把自己整理一下
Of running around
而不是像熱鍋上的螞蟻一樣慌
And pulling all your threads and
拋開一切紛亂的思緒
Breaking yourself up
然後誠實的面對你自己

If it's a broken part, replace it
如果受傷的是零件,就把它換掉
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
如果受傷的是手臂,就把它固定好
If it's a broken heart then face it
如果受傷的是心,那麼就面對它...
 
And hold your own
然後擁抱自己
Know your name
輕喚自己的名字
And go your own way
就走上自己的路吧
 
 
Hold your own
擁抱自己
Know your own name
了解你真正的樣子
And go your own way
然後走上你決定的路吧

And everything will be fine
然後一切都會沒事的。
Everything will be fine
一切都會沒事的。
mmmhmm
嗯....

Hang on
撐著點
Help is on the way
救援就在路上了
Stay strong
堅強一點
I'm doing everything
我正用盡所有辦法...

Hold your own
擁抱你
Know your name
了解你的名字
And go your own way
並且走上你的道路
 
Hold your own
擁抱你自己
Know your name
了解你的名字
And go your own way
並且走上你的道路

And everything, everything will be fine
然後所有事情,所有的一切都會沒事的。
Everything
所有事情。

Are the details in the fabric
一切都是被註定好的嗎?
Are the things that make you panic
這一切會使你驚慌嗎?
Are your thoughts results of static cling?
你的思緒被嚇得呆在這裡了嗎?

Are the things that make you blow
這一切是否令你快要抓狂了呢?
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
管它的呢,你不需要理由。放聲尖叫吧。
If you're shocked it's just the fault
如果你很震驚於自己的錯誤
Of faulty manufacturing.
一切也只不過是人生中必然的錯誤而已
Yeah everything will be fine
是的,一切都會沒事的
Everything in no time at all
一切都還來得及
Everything
所有的一切...

Hold your own
擁抱你自己
And know your name
輕喚你的名字
And go your own way
並且走上你的道路
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
一切都是被註定好的嗎(擁抱你自己,了解你的名字)
Are the things that make you panic
這一切讓你感到驚慌嗎
 
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)
你的思緒被嚇得呆在這裡了嗎?(走上你的道路吧)
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
一切都是被註定好的嗎(擁抱你自己,了解你的名字)
Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way)
這一切讓你感到驚慌嗎(走上你的道路吧)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine?
一切都是冥冥中自有安排?

Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
這一切讓你快要抓狂了嗎(擁抱你自己,了解你的名字)
 
Hell no reason go on and scream
別管他那麼多理由了就放聲尖叫吧
 
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
如果你被自己犯下的錯誤嚇到(走上自己的道路吧)
 
Of faulty manufacturing
一切也只不過是人生中必然的錯誤而已
Everything will be fine
一切都會沒事的
Everything in no time at all
一切都還來得及
Hearts will hold
你的心知道....

2010年8月29日 星期日

*splitting my emotion into two



A lazy Sunday afternoon, came to office and work for a friend's wedding card project..
Before started working on the project, spend a little time browsing fb....
found out that my recent crush has just started a relationship.....
with someone else....... ~_~!!

OH NOOOO.....
NOOOOOOO.....
>.<......

I guess Nicole was right...
all the coincidence that I found I had with him were just not real...
I was living in my own little bubble~~~ holding on to those coincidences, and thinking... yah.. we had so much in common...
Well, today, the bubble were stabbed open...

This little heart broken drawing is just something for me to remember how I feel at this moment!!

With that said...
I need to get back to Nicole's wedding card project!!

I am amazed by how I can switch my emotion from one end to another...
(sigh...)
What needs to be done has to be done...

咬著牙快快做完吧!!!

*a little side note: I was listening to The Radio Dept while writing.
Their sad little tone of music is just how I feel right now...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pKWLOBIOypY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dbgOe-ZLgeA&feature=related
 I think I need a smoke after I'm done working....... :'(

2009年9月22日 星期二

*lunch break*


Dream


Didn't wanna waste my lunch hour gossiping or having some nonsense talk with coworkers.. =_=
自己一個人找了舒服的地方吃中飯.

In the restaurant, they were playing Lisa Ono.
好久沒聽Lisa Ono了.. (仍舊沈迷於indie rock..)
她的聲音好舒服~

外面的陽光配這種音樂
正正好!!! *v*

吃完中飯,踩著輕鬆的腳步在一家coffee shop前停了下來,
買了杯咖啡繼續往前走.
走著走著..
走回了辦公室.....
(要是能走回家,或是SOGO會有多好ㄚ)
=_=

好心情讓我有力氣面對reality,地下一樓的小世界~

2008年9月9日 星期二

9/9 of 2008*


今年的9月9號不想不一樣.
Don't feel like doing something different. 只想安靜的把今天過掉.

今天像是來到了夏天的尾巴 涼涼的風飄著小雨
我現在的心情正適合抽煙.



(不知道自己是在悲個什麼東西的啦.. =.=
振作點!!! vivian!!!!!!!)

2008年9月3日 星期三

panic mood*




慌了慌了..
我慌了啦...

再過一個月我就要到日本去看radiohead's concert.
BBD was gonna go with me,可哪知天上掉下來一份工作...
他走不開了... =.=

9月1號...熊熊想起要去看Radiohead,開始上網research Tokyo. 開始發慌.
9月2號...上班忙,所以沒時間想日本的事.
9月3號...travel agent報價給我機加酒共三萬=.=!! 我一整個傻眼..決定靠自己,research找地方住...
可怎麼就越找越慌啊... >.
這..日本..日本..不..是東京..東京..
阿東京怎麼這麼複雜啊...地名多到一種地步..
把東京的地鐵表印出來一看..整張A4密密麻麻的字...看到發昏..
媽呀... 然後我又看不懂日文.. 想到一個人要到完全不熟悉的地方..語言又不通...
我一整個慌啊..... >.<

SOMEBODY HELP!!!!!!!!!!!

萬萬沒想到去看Radiohead會是這樣的心情啊... >.<

2008年5月29日 星期四

the world underneath my toe~


話說我本身就有灰指甲...
(希望各位知道後還願意和我做朋友...) =.=!!

我大拇指的指甲早已被細菌侵蝕得差不多了,
搖搖晃晃的..
在某一天深夜,睡夢中隱約踢到被子..
隔天起來發現...
疑~ 我的指甲竟掀開了一半
另一半還和肉連著.
不過一點都不痛.

終於有機會看看指甲底下的世界是長什麼樣子了~
附上照片和你們分享~

**下面這兩張這是BBD幫我拍的,我個人覺得這照片很屌!! *v*
最上面那張是我在醫院waiting room照的~